And if you were with me tonight, I'd sing to you just one more time. A song for a heart so big, God couldn't let it live.

On December 5th, 2006, I lost someone I never knew. Watching my son grow and learn and play makes me think about her so much. I was 6 months pregnant when I unexpectedly gave birth to my daughter Abigail. She did not survive the birthing process, and even if she had her life would have been so hard. I miss her everyday, I wish I had both of my children to watch play. I know she is in a far better world, and that someday the Lord will bless me with another daughter. Until I see you again sweet daughter, please know how much you are missed and loved.

Faking Fall

My favorite season by far is Fall! I love the weather, the scents, the sights! Well the hardest part about living in the desert is that we have no distinct fall season. This morning the was a crisp wind in the air though, thus faking fall has begun! My first step, homemade potpurri:

In a sauce pan add about 2 inches of water, get a boil going on the stove.
Add what you like, cinnamon, nutmeg, pumpkin spice
Also add, cinnamon sticks, apple peels, orange peels, ect of your choice
After it has boiled a minute or so, put on simmer and enjoy!
The house will smell amazing and cozy!

I did cinnamon and apple peels and it smells as if I have been baking all morning!
What will be my next step? Decorating! I am making a trip to the dollar store this evening. I found some great craft ideas using some itmes from there. I will add pictures after my first project of a door decoration.
I am so jealous of everyone out there who truly gets to experience fall, enjoy it for me!

The Other Man in my Life

This is my son, Joseph. We call him Jo Jo, not sure why! He is 14 months old. I have been so blessed to have such an amazing little boy!

My Everything

This picture says it all. He is my world.

Movie of the night

So Joe, my husband, and I love to watch movies. Tonight after a lazy dinner of spaghetti, we popped one in. Last night I picked Obsessed, so tonight was his turn. He chose Never Back Down. A highschool fighting movie. I know, instantly you think PASS, well here is some incentive... the movie features an actor who also plays in Twilight. Yup thought that would get your attention. I wont tell you who though, you will just have to check out the movie. If your into UFC fighting or any MMA you will find this movie entertaining. I wont give too much away, but lets just say it was better than I thought!

I have this plaque in my kitchen. It says LIVE... the life you have always imagined. For some reason it really struck a cord with me today. I thought about the life I have always wanted, the girl I always wanted to be. I am no where near that goal. So tonight I will sit and think long and hard about what it is that I want, and what I need to do to get it. Goal #1... dust off the elliptical and shed the pounds I gained recently. Goal #2...find the time and energy to keep the house cleaner. Goal #3... have more intimate moments with my husband. Those are my first goals. I will update with my progress periodically.

A Whole New World

Hello There!
I am very new to this blogging world. But I figure this can be my diary. My thoughts on marriage, being a military wife, and being a mom. I am sure to share a few controversial thoughts, and crazy stories, as well as tips and tricks. Hope someone can get something out of this blog besides just me!