What a funk

Ever since my surgey I have been in such a funk. I dont want to be touched by my husband in a romantic way. Im not sure why and I feel like a horrible wife. I think I am just still in the mourning stage of my miscarriage.

We go back to California this saturday. I hope we can get our flights in order so that we can still take Joey trick or treating. He will be the cutest puppy around! I will try to put up a picture of him when I can. I am enjoying the fall weather in Ohio, I will miss it when the plane lands in Vegas. This is all for now, maybe I am in a blogging funk as well!

Not again...

I had a miscarriage. No need to draw out a long story and grab your attention. I went to the ER yesterday for a suspected ectopic pregnancy. The doctor confirmed that the pregnancy seemed as if it was in my left ovary. I went in for surgery today, only to find nothing. I am very grateful that I did not have to have my ovary taken out. I was told that I was on the down side of a miscarriage, that I had been pregnant for atleast 2 months and had lost the child, there was no longer a trace of him. I am heartbroken yet again to have lost my child. This was my third pregnancy, yet I only have one son. I am so blessed to have him though. I know God does everything for a reason, even if I dont understand it right now. Please, if you are able to get pregnant and maintain a healthy pregnancy, be grateful. Dont take advantage of it for a minute. I would give anything to be in your shoes...

Well what a suprise!!!

Well hello there! I have been MIA for awhile now, for that I apologize. I have taken a trip home to Ohio. In short, I came home for awhile because of some major stresses in California. I should have posted sooner but my 15 month old son keeps me busy!

Well two weeks ago I decided to get back on the depo provera shot after trying out the mini pill. I had some weight gain and other side effects with the mini pill and decided to go back on the depo. Per usual with the shot I had to give a urine sample to make sure I was not pregnant. I am sitting in the office, and started noticing how long it was take her to come back to administer the shot. The nurse comes back in with my file, " I cant give you the shot". I wasnt sure what she meant, I asked her what do you mean? "your pregnant, I tested twice, congratulations" WOW!!! I didnt expect that at all! I had no symptons, no "feelings", and because of the type of birth control I was on, no real periods!

So here I am today, after 5 tests, 2 blood tests, I am pregnant. We are not sure how far along yet, I believe at my appointment this thursday she will schedule an ultrasound. Although unexpected, I am thrilled. My husband is BEYOND thrilled. The symptons have kicked in, at 8:30 pm nightly I get sick to my stomach and the headache kicks in! I feel as if a little bump is started to show already. This is my third pregnancy so I knew I would show much earlier anyways. Well I will keep you updated on this amazing blessing!